Eff Fear. Holiday cheer!

It's slightly ludicrous, the amount of things that an average person is expected to deal with in his/her life. Love, death, money, school, having a job, supporting yourself, and supporting other people, just to name a few. Oh, and you're expected to be happy too, while trying to juggle all of these things. Life is at least nice in the sense that it doesn't throw all of these things at you at once. It stacks them, more or less neatly in your hands one at a time, so that you seemingly don't notice the imminent overload, when you can't hold anymore.

Lately, overload has definitely been setting in. I'm feeling the stress of having to write final essays, 3 of which are worth 50% of my grade in their respective classes. I'm feeling the stress of money. I currently have $0.83 in my bank account, 2ish pounds in cash (most of which in .05pound coins), and $93 left on my credit limit. When I get back to the states, I'll be needing to pay off my credit card bill, pay rent (FOR MY NEW APARTMENT YAY!!!!), take 18 hours of class, design costumes for a show, hopefully be in a show, start an honors project, and hold a steady job that somehow accommodates my schedule....

....right....

And as stressed as I am about all of this... I know its all going to be ok and work out in the end.

How do I know this? well... I don't. What I do know is that I have amazing parents that even in their hard times will do whatever they can to help me out. I know that I have friends that will be there when I feel like I'm about to pull my hair out. And I know that God is going to help me see it through.

There was a suicide bomber in Stockholm recently. 

We still haven't repealed "Don't Ask Don't Tell" (although we're making progress) or allowed Gay Marriage.

Westboro Baptist Church is still picketing funerals

People are starving all over the world

People are trying to scare others into believing in God and "preaching at them"

There is an HIV epidemic in Africa.

...But we're gonna get through it as best we can.

Yes, we have to do as much as we can to help all of these situations and others that are happening around the world... but in the short term... what's the use in worrying?

Shit is gonna happen. It just is. And we're not getting anywhere by worrying about it. And that applies just as much to my bank account as it does to terrorist attacks. 

So in the meantime... put on a smile. Its Christmas for God's sake! Throw on your favorite tunes and rock out. Dance 'till you're thighs hurt. Throw parties. Have fun, spread God's love through your actions, and STOP WORRYING SO DAMN MUCH. 

Everything is going to be fine. I promise. :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS!